Pain is Resistance to Change
What a ride I have been on today I had a session to do and it brought up a lot for me too, so good when that happens. I woke up and I was so sore, I could have put it down to playing tennis but I know better, pain is resistance to change and I was about to shift and change and I wasn’t sure on some level if I wanted to do that. I had a sore back and I asked my partner to massage me, as he started my muscle went into spasm, wow it hurt I could hardly move. He gave me a great massage and as it started to shift I burst into tears it brought up so much emotion. It was about failure, fear of success and fear that I didn’t fit into the so called business box I had created in my head. I allowed it to flow along with the tears, such a huge release. I was talking throughout the massage so that I could hear where I was going and that just deepened the release. I went on a ride of not knowing what to do next, to how do I let someone help me, I have had to do it all myself for so long how do I let someone support me, I can’t do everything when it comes to business, I just want to show up and do what I am good at.
Then the turning point came and I started to see the light I have an amazing partner that is more than capable and wants to help me. What a team we are, he fills in the gaps that I can’t, but wow the resistance to allowing him is huge. To be within this space, it felt amazing when it shifted, I went into’ this is happening, it is really happening’. I then saw how this intertwined into the session I was about to do and I gave thanks for the gift and my back started to loosen. I will allow this to let go and integrate for the next couple of days. Feeling blessed to be me and have this life that I am tailoring for myself full of love and happiness. My work is moving to the next level, I have now realised that I have pushed away this growth again and again because of fear. I am supported in everything I do and this feels amazing.